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September 1st, 2010

Career Choices

HomeworkToday has been one of those days that has me wishing I were working instead of being a full time stay at home mom. Don’t get me wrong, I love my "job", but I do occasionally have days when I dream of being out of the house. Going to work full time would be a vacation for me, but it’s one I would tire of very quickly. I would miss being home with my little girl, and I’d find myself right back in my SAHM position.

I consider myself very lucky that I get to stay at home with my daughter, but I have been considering going back to school when she gets a little bigger. Right now it’s pretty much impossible for me to do that unless I have a babysitter, and that’s one expense we just can’t afford right now. When she’s older, maybe preschool age, I do want to further my education.

Unfortunately I’ll have to start all over again as most of my college credits "expired" within the last year. That’s not exactly a bad thing, though. 10 years ago when I was starting college I had a great desire to be a doctor. I’ve spent some time looking around healthcare job sites, and even though I’m not interested in becoming a doctor now, I would still consider a career in healthcare. More than likely I wouldn’t choose that, though. For me the ideal career would probably revolve around either something computer related.

It’s definitely something I need to start thinking about. I might be able to go ahead and start taking a few online classes here and there to knock out some of my core classes. If I made myself do it I could find the time for a class or two, but being a full time student just isn’t in the cars right now. Once Elliana is school age, or even preschool age for that matter, it will be much easier for me to do.

August 22nd, 2010

A Little Vacation Wish

After the week I’ve been having what I really need right now is a vacation.  We were supposed to go to the beach on October, but it just wasn’t meant to be.  What totally sucks is I really do need a vacation right now because some days I feel like I’m on the verge of going crazy if I don’t get away for a few days.

I’m sure every mom feels like that from time to time.  Tonight I find myself wishing Mommy could get a bit of a break, even for just one day.  Don’t get me wrong, I love my family, but we’re currently going through the separation anxiety phase, and that has Mommy wishing a vacation could be in my near future.

Dune fenceI would absolutely love to take a few days, maybe even a week, to visit the Outer Banks.  I’ve been looking at some specs on a beach house posted by Carolina Designs that I would love to rent, and that has me really wishing an Outer Banks vacation could be planned for us very soon.  I can just imagine myself relaxing by the private pool or taking a dip in the hot tub while Hubby chilled in the game room or watched tv. 

Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivs 2.0 GenericI’d follow that up with a walk along the beach or a trip to see the beautiful banker horses that roam free on the beach.  Lighthouses, mini golf, and plenty of fresh seafood would also be a part of my trip, but I’d spend most of my time relaxing enjoying the fact that I didn’t have to be Mommy for a few days.

Relaxation is what I really need right now, but I’ll have to keep wishing.  We just don’t have the financial means to take a trip this year unless something changes.  That can’t stop me from dreaming about it, though.  I think I may have to curl up in bed, close my eyes, and drift off to sleep thinking about what it would be like to have my toes in the sand right now.  Sometimes just the thought of relaxation is all I need to change my mood.

August 20th, 2010

In A Rut

I’ve been in a bit of a blogging rut lately.  Sure, I’ve been able to get a few posts out, but I’m not blogging as much as I would like to.  I’ve had a hard time finding the time I would like to devote to my blogging, and when I do have time I sit down to find myself with nothing to say. 

Let me rephrase that.  There have been plenty of things to talk about, but most of them I just don’t want to share.  Some are too personal to throw out there.  Then there’s the fact that we’ve had a lot of not so great stuff happening lately, and I don’t want to sit here constantly whining about the bad. 

Blogging is a bit of therapy for me.  I blog when I’m feeling down or when I have something on my mind, but I’m not the type of person who can leave all of my personal thoughts for everyone to read.  Those posts become a part of my private journal that only I can read, but sometimes that can be a bad thing as it leaves me without much to say.

There are some things, though, that I need to start blogging about again.  I’ve got a lot on my mind that has me frazzled today, but I’ve refrained from blogging those things because, like I said, I didn’t want to sound like I was whining.  Then I decided I might as well blog anyway because if I can’t whine from time to time on my own blog, then where can I?  My blogs are here for me, and as much as I love my readers I’m not writing specifically to draw in readers.  I write for myself.

So be warned there may be a few posts that contain a bit of whining, and if you don’t like those you are free to skip them.

August 10th, 2010

Headache Headache Go Away

The dog days of summer are definitely upon us, and with them my headaches have returned in full force. I’ve had a sinus headache all day that refuses to go away no matter what I do to relieve it. The baby is suffering right now as well. She woke up sounding like she’s got an itty bitty frog in her throat, and she’s been pretty fussy most of the day. It’s time to breakout her Zyrtec again.

Now I have to sit down and make myself go over the bills. It’s just really hard to concentrate on something I hate doing when I’ve got this killer headache. Heck it’s hard to concentrate on bills when I’m feeling fine and in a great mood.

Oh well it’s something that has to be done, and I need to get to it before the little one wakes up. It’s become impossible to do anything on the pc when she’s awake as she immediately spots my netbook and pitches a fit to have it. She completely ignores the little baby laptop we bought her because it’s nothing like Mommy’s real one.

If I get the bills done before she wakes up I’m going to start pulling out some stuff to yard sale. I have a ton of clothes to get rid of again including some coogi shirts that were given to me. None of them fit, and my aunt said to do whatever I wanted with the ones that didn’t fit, so they are all going straight into the yard sale pile. I’m hoping to go through all the baby clothes we have today as well because I have a ton of those that we aren’t keeping. It’s time to pass them onto someone else who needs them and get them out of my house!