I don’t know why, but I’m in a bit of a bummed out mood tonight.  Maybe it’s because things aren’t exactly going the way I wanted them to be right now.  Maybe it’s because I haven’t gotten to go out and enjoy myself in awhile, and I haven’t really seen what few friends I have in a few months.  What’s more likely is that it’s a combo of all of the above.

As a mom I tend to forget that I need time to get away, too.  I feel very blessed to have family that want to spend time with Ellie during the week, but when she’s away for a few hours I spend most of that time catching up on housework and online work.  Because we only have 1 car right now it’s not like I can use that time to get out for some shopping (or window shopping would be more likely) or to meet up with a girlfriend for lunch.  I feel like that’s going to have to change.  I think every mom needs to get away for a few hours every now and then whether it’s alone or with a friend.  We need that time to clear our heads and do something for ourselves instead of catering to everyone else all the time.  The way I’ve been feeling lately I’m desperately needing a couple hours away.

Maybe I can get up with my BFF soon and schedule a lunch date or something that’s baby and hubby free.  It’s just been really hard to do that since Ben’s working 6 days a week, and she’s usually working on his day off.  He needs the car to get to work, and dropping him off so I can have the car is absolutely out of the question.  I’m not willing to drag Ellie out of bed at 6am to get him to work, and he’s already got a 30 minute commute one day.  I’d be spending 2 hours a day just driving to drop him off and pick him up.  I definitely don’t need to do anything that’s going to make my life more stressful right now.

*Sigh*  It’s already after midnight, but I think I’m going to make myself a cup of hot chocolate and curl up with a book.  I’ve already knocked 3 off my 2012 reading list, and starting a new one might help me relax and feel a little better.