How has your 2012 been going?  Mine didn’t get off to the start I was hoping for, but in the last 2 days a lot has happened that will definitely send this year in a new direction.  I really don’t make resolutions.  I do make goals I’d like to achieve, but I don’t resolve that I absolutely must do those things in the new year.  This year is a little different because I’ve been struggling with some things that I’ve been bottling inside me for years.  I decided this is the year to address those things, get them off my chest, and move past them.   I plan to speak up more often to let others know when they hurt or offend me.

I had also planned to sit down and have a chat with two people who have continuously been a thorn in my side throughout my life.  These are people who I should be close with, but things have happened in my past that keep our relationship distant…things that happened throughout my childhood as well as other things that have carried over to adulthood.  I don’t really want to get into what exactly did happen because it is extremely personal, but I am 30 years old, and it’s time to try to move past it.  I’m sure after I tell those people how I really feel, how much pain they really have caused in my life over the last 20 or so years, and how I will no longer allow that…I’m sure a lot will change.  Will it change in a good way?  Definitely because I already feel the weight lifting from my shoulders just by promising myself I’m going to deal with this…immediately.

This is my year to be a stronger person.  I will stand up for myself and my family.  I won’t allow those certain people to constantly drag me down any longer.  I’m a bit sad that I had to reach the age of 30 before I grew a pair and decided to do this, but it’s definitely never too late to change your life, and that’s exactly what I’m going to do in 2012.

Tuesday, January 3rd, 2012, 2:16 pm   |   Life  |  RSS feed Comments and pings are currently closed.