So Slack & Still Pissed Off
I feel like I’ve been so slack on all my blogs lately. It’s like I’ve gotten into a funk I just can’t bring myself out of. I’m still posting, but it’s like my heart isn’t in it. It’s not that I don’t love blogging because I do. It gives me an outlet when I feel like I can’t turn to other people.
It’s just that I haven’t felt like doing much at all in general. I’ve been dealing with an ongoing thyroid issue, and the stress of not being able to get my doctor to agree on a treatment has really gotten to me. Of course the fact that I’m waking up in the middle of the night with a lump on my throat doesn’t help either.
Hubby keeps asking me why I’ve been acting so depressed lately. I smile and say “Baby, I’m not depressed”, but he just waits awhile and asks me again. Really, I don’t think I’m depressed. I just think I’m stressed out big time.
Then again how could I not be stressed? I’m not answering my mother’s phone calls again because she keeps bringing up the weight factor. She called while we were on our way to dinner Friday evening and fussed at me when I said I was getting food.
She said something about the fact that she’d just watched me eat at my Grandparent’s house, so why was I eating again if I didn’t want to be fat? OMG…at my Grandparent’s I ate ONE piece of cantelope to hold me over until Hubby got home from work. It was the one thing I’d eaten all day!
What’s next? Is she going to shove weight loss pill reviews in my mailbox? The woman seriously has some issues, and my mother or not, I’ve decided I’ve got to push that out of my life for right now. She needs to deal with her own issues, mental or otherwise, instead of hounding me about issues that don’t even exist.
Do I look like someone seriously overweight?
No! I think I look like a 26 year old healthy woman who is pissed off her mother won’t stop calling her fat! I guess it’s all my fault God gave me huge boobs, right? 
Trust me, I’d loooove to have a breast reduction!
Tags: depression, health issues, weight issues
