It’s been a weird week around here.  I’ve been seriously sick, and that’s put a halt in a lot of things I wanted to do.  On top of that we got some really bad news about Hubby’s grandma.  The doctors have been telling us one side of her heart was about 80% blocked, and if she could get her body healthy enough they could do the surgery.

That’s not going to happen.  Last week she started acting senile.  She’s done this before, and it’s a sign she’s not getting enough oxygen to her brain.  She will repeat the same sentence 3 or 4 times in a row, or she’ll talk about something from years ago as it’s present day.  She doesn’t have Alzheimer’s.  Her brain just can’t handle the lack of oxygen.

When this started the doctors ran more tests, and now they see that the other side of her heart is 90% blocked.  How they missed it I don’t know.  All I know is she’s not doing well at all.  She’s also a diabetic, and her legs have swollen to the point she can’t walk.  The doctors have no chance of doing the surgery.  Before they were giving her 6 months to live without the surgery, and much longer with it.  Now the doctors are telling us she could die within the week or it could be months.  They honestly don’t know.

It’s a sad situation.  We found out by accident she would probably be healthy right now, but when she lived in Alabama she wouldn’t cooperate with her doctors.  She convinced herself they were all wrong about her condition, and she was better off taking care of herself.  Her main reason for wanting to move here was the fact that no one would treat her any longer there.  We wanted to move her up here anyway so we’d have her close to family where we can all take care of her, but her main reason for wanting to move was the fact she knew she couldn’t get medical attention there.

I want to go see her, but I don’t want to risk taking my germs into Hospice.  Hubby is going to see her tonight, but I’m still running a fever.  If my fever breaks I’ll go see her, but I don’t want to chance passing along something that her body can’t fight off.